Arise!

I think I am beginning, and I do mean just beginning, to find myself — you realize that I must find my own self and be something or someone, not necessarily in any concrete manner, but in a personal manner. — However, I am growing, and I am doing it alone — perhaps you feel excluded in this but it can only happen alone... I feel the growth in one sharp way — I feel myself beginning to love you instead of just need you. I don’t think I have ever loved anyone in my life, not really — just needed them, wanted them to love me to possess me — to become such a part of someone that I could lose my frightened self... Now, I am learning — very slowly, with lots of backing and filling, but still learning.